This week is going to be a challenge for me.
It is the final week before my first time as the lead on a project and there are some obstacles and issues that need ironing out to make sure it will run smoothly.
I've had a few sleepless nights / early wake ups where I can't get back to sleep because of the problems which aren't helping my anxiety towards the project.
Even though my colleagues and manager keep reminding me that I'm doing a good job I can't help but feel these problems shouldn't be there and that I could've done better!
Realistically, I know I have gone above and beyond and that there really isn't more that I could've done.
I have done everything in my power to work past these issues; a fact noted by my manager, but they are there all the same and the Devil on my shoulder keeps reminding me constantly that there are still issues that could affect the project next week.
I wish I could get rid of the Devil I really do! But then again, I'd be worried if he wasn't there because it would mean I've given up caring about what I'm doing and then I would need to have a word with myself to see if I really wanted to continue.
To spin it into a positive the Devil on my shoulder means I truly care about what I'm doing and the positive impact it will have on my community! If he wasn't there I'd be worried as it would mean I didn't care about my work and if that ever happened I would have to reassess my career to see fi it is really where I wanted to be.
Thankfully I don't have this problem at the moment! If anything, I care too much (the story of my life; it's why I'm such a softie!) which causes the sleepless nights / early mornings! I need to learn to deal with the Devil so he doesn't create anxiety in my life and affect my health.
Onto today's quote:
This is my mantra for the week and when I'm struggling I will repeat this to myself to calm the rising anxiety.
Positivity is the main thing I need to remember to be. It might be tough but as long as I keep a positive attitude to my work I won't get clouded in anxiety or overwhelmed by it.
If I remain positive it will help me to work harder to overcome the obstacles that are in the way of a great project next week. As long as I put 100% effort into my career this week like I have all other weeks, then, whatever happens, I know in my soul that I have done everything I possibly can to create the best outcome.
If i remember all this then I will make this project the best it can be, despite all the obstacles that are in my way.
I hope you all have a positive week and work hard to achieve whatever you are working towards!
Let me know below what you hope to achieve!
I wish you all the luck in the world!